Destiny

I lie on my hard, narrow bed
Staring up at the blank ceiling
With eyes I can barely keep open
Swollen as they are
Like the rest of my being.
New blisters surface each day
Signalling the end is near
Time has come to cross over
To the realm between two lives.
I reminisce the old days
And my pain increases a thousand folds
Wincing as my unhealed wounds
Freshly burst open with memories…
I was once young and handsome
Every girl’s fantasy, every man’s dream
Enjoying their undivided attention
Wrongly taking advantage of it.
I realized I shouldn’t have; only too late
God paid me back in his own special way.
Once they knew, tongues lashed out
Rough, unkind hands once kind and smooth
Pushed me away into the living dead
To rot till I died a painful death.
I pleaded and cried and screamed and begged
Nobody heard me but the silver moon.
Somebody still kind enough put me here
To repent for my debauched deeds.
Now as I lie on my hard, narrow bed
I promise to myself and to God,
The next time I emerge from the womb
I shall be a humble soul.
I shall change my own destiny.

Another Piece Of My Broken Heart

There goes a piece of glass
Another piece of my broken heart
I see a reflection of me with tears
Rolling incessantly down my cheeks
My eyes staring right back into my soul
Branding into it the reality;
I lost in love – again.
Days before, you said you loved me
I said I loved you back.
Realization hits me, ‘twas a lie
Not on my part, but yours.
I know not how long it will take
I know not how hard it will be
But if I ever move on,
If I ever fall in love again
It is because you left my side
You left my heart bleeding
In pain, in search of love
In search of a person to trust;
Because you simply let me go
Pushed me away with unsaid words
To a faraway land that knows no love
A place overcast with pain;
Blood caked on my hands
Tired from gathering and holding together
The uncountable pieces of my broken heart.
Every piece yearning to heal
To be put back together
And love again as one heart…